Rejection && Heartbreak Poetry

Life has been really rough lately. I feel depressed again. I'm not motivated. I continue to isolate my self. Seek escapism. Not care as much.

I like dresses with rainboots

I don't even know what I want anymore. It's like the 7 of Cups Tarot card. There are many choices presented to me. I just feel exhausted && everything is foggy. Why can't I ever think clearly? Is it that I continue to live on my Neptune line? Is it that I don't know how to separate what I want from other's constant projections on me? All I feel is rejection && heartbreak.

Completed 02/21/26

I fall hard && I fall quick.

Completed 02/25/26

I honestly don't have the capacity to write on my blog. I just feel rejection && heartbreak. I know I am doing this to myself. I take full responsibility.

I also wanted to feel a sense of accomplishment with posting my work. I've been writing && reading.

My orbit has returned to me. I also have new strings. Thank you StoneOrbits! Can't wait to get flowing again.

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I feel like life is just never ending trauma with only small pockets of good rather than life being relatively good with pockets of trauma. I guess we all came to Earth school just to see how much we can endure with humanity && still have a healthy planet to stand on despite us completely destroying her.

Life seems so somber right now. I'm just trying to survive at this point while wanting to create art.

That is the tension I find in myself.

Take care.

xo,

⭐️EF🌷