Back from Bali && Life is an Upward Spiral
- Elektra Flora
- Jun 15
- 4 min read
Hello World.
It’s me. Elektra Flora. I’m back.
Today is June 15, 2025 and wow we have reached the middle of the year! I haven’t written on my blog since February before I left for Bali, Indonesia. A lot has happened since my last post including traveling to three countries in Asia, getting my 200-hour Yoga Teacher Training certificate, moving out of my apartment, spending my entire life savings, and attending EDCLV 2025. It’s been a wild ride. Now that I'm back from Bali, I’m doing my best to return to the everyday swing of life with all it's routines and responsibilities.
I don’t even know where to start with this blog post. I feel like my life always has a million things going on and I can barely focus. I’m a person with too many interests and hobbies that I spread myself thinly trying to do it all- any other Mercury in Gemini's in da house?! When I was in university I was in so many clubs and organizations that I was forced to step away from a few because I genuinely couldn’t balance them all with my schoolwork. I'm not ashamed that I get overwhelmed with wanting to do so many different things because I’m here to experience life to it's fullest as a human being and soak up all that this world has to offer. It’s a beautiful thing.
I’m itching to create. I wish my life was in order so that I could comfortably livestream, write, orbit (dance), and DJ. Instead I have junk everywhere and my things in boxes in a storage unit. It’s stressful. I also am looking for work and hoping to get my own place again as soon as possible. I need my own space so I can create in peace.
I feel like I’m in limbo. I wake up everyday in this cycle of applying to jobs or organizing my things. It has not been fun at all. The cherry on top is struggling to pay my bills. I am behind on several to be honest.
However, despite this lull in my life where it seems like nothing exciting is happening I still find little things that make me happy and help me remain positive. I wouldn’t be able to push through this if I didn’t have my spirituality, creative outlets, or music festivals. To be honest those are the things keeping me alive at this point. I’ve had suicidal thoughts in my past and more recently. I choose to stay alive and not hurt myself because I don’t want to come back to Earth. This is a learning experience for my soul. If I were to end it all I would only be faced with the same fate - return to Earth and do it again.
Nah. I’m good. I’ll keep going with this life and finish the game all the way to the most righteous end. My soul can’t bear another round of Earth. I was told by a psychic that this would be my last incarnation here as long as I get it “right.” Getting it right is showing love and compassion to every single living being on this planet including myself. I’m grateful that my life's challenge was communicated to me because time and time again I have been tested and was able to make a conscious decision. There’s been instances where I failed to show love because I couldn't control my negative emotions while other times I got it correct, but overall I am moving in the right direction. It takes practice and I know it will get easier.
I wish I had more stability in my life so I can not only live comfortably without worry, but so I can continue on the artist’s path and create freely. Instead I feel like I'm the edge of two different dimensions by living with one foot in the Heavens (Elektra) and the other here on Earth (Flora). Eating, money, exercising, having a roof over my head… those are human needs that I cannot forgo. For awhile I thought I could kick my feet up and God/Higher Power/Spirit would provide for me, but unfortunately things don’t typically manifest that way. Representative of the Earth element, I’m forced to be grounded where I have to put in the hard work myself with my own two hands so I can obtain those human things. That’s reality.
When circumstances get tough remember that we are all here to grow, learn, and ascend. Life is like an upward spiral. We go through cycles and it’s not always easy. We all have our challenges that are unique to our own life experiences. We can’t compare with each other, but we can share notes. By telling our stories and teaching others things we learned in our time as humans, we can pass off knowledge to perhaps ease the pain just a little for someone else.
The light in me sees, acknowledges, && honors the light in you.
Take care.
xo,
Elektra Flora
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